why do I feel the way I feel I thought taking a step back would help me deal with how I feel. laying down watching series and sleeping. feeling empty, anything to push the tears about to fall out. when is it all going to change? when am I going to be satisfied? when will I no longer count on people to hit me up? when will I change for me? Im feeling empty and have nothing but alchol and red bull to fill me up. im feeling empty so I turn to the Lord please hear me out. im feeling nothing. I feel numb cause I think too much. people out there going through much worse, I choose to relax but I'm very idle. time to change things up. but go no resources to do so. been working but the money leaks out my hand. I have become a donor to a project I did not sign up to. no feedbacks just question.